Talking about rape, abortion, adoptions - also the last 20 years of my life. Don't read it if you don't want to read about yucky stuff. Go anywhere else on my blog, there's plenty.
Pulled a quick Jim Carrey, no biggie. In the process of creating the life I want. Whatever that means. I can't put it in words, it's not really about materials. I'm not my house, I'm not my clothes. I'm just a persona wandering around to see what I can learn. Apparently random disappearances from the... Continue Reading →
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ifwc5xgI3QM I have always been a casual Foo fan at best. I dug the radio hits, and generally got sick of them because they are perpetually overplayed. It's honestly how I felt about Nirvana back in the day... But this new album. Fuck me it's good. Run is such a good song, that I actually... Continue Reading →
Suicide Prevention Month - My Story Pt 1 About 2 months ago, I was driving home and The Outsider by A Perfect Circle came on. It’s one of those songs that felt too close to home about myself. I was singing and thinking how I had been punishing myself for everything that happened with my... Continue Reading →
I've been following the story about the four men who are missing in Bucks County pretty closely. I live in Bucks County, so naturally, it's all over the place. Internet sleuths are commenting with their *thoroughly researched intel* (read: bullshit) that they are all drug addicts, etc. It is amazing to me how quickly people... Continue Reading →
“You are an aperture through which the universe is looking at and exploring itself.” ― Alan W. Watts I'm back on a TOOL kick, and it's massaging the brain again. Listening to Forty Six & 2, I finally had the aha I've been missing, or at least I forgot I knew. Or maybe I just... Continue Reading →
I felt my soul ripped outward, hung shapeless in the day Rose red of blushing cheeks, as the world inspects my shame I hid naked in the daylight, a flesh covered rag doll A child heaved in the darkest gutters of my own desire I found the hell they speak of, when I gazed into... Continue Reading →
Dear ____, Most days I do not know what I wish for most – that I never met you, or that I could steal my heart back from the icicles you call fingers. Your smile melted me into a pool of yes, despite my brain screaming no. For all the lies I have told myself,... Continue Reading →
It’s insane I’m sure, to tell you, I want to marry a man who doesn’t know me My man is a man who will sit in my flames Shivering, chattering, "I am freezing" Why should I drown in oceans of tears, When I can float in depths of madness? I don’t need the boat of any belligerent... Continue Reading →
