Talking about rape, abortion, adoptions - also the last 20 years of my life. Don't read it if you don't want to read about yucky stuff. Go anywhere else on my blog, there's plenty.
Hell is where the heart is
Keeping the Ass in Class
First World Problems: Alexa doesn't yet understand "Play Fear Innocculum album by TOOL". On the positive, she has not given me angry mariachi instead. The solution to frustration is of course acceptance and shifting to gratitude. Despite the fact that my house looked like the aftermath of a frat party, there were 5 boys playing,... Continue Reading →
Hoover (is this a god) Dam
Hoover (is this a god) Dam Sometimes it’s so much easier... to see all the things I want to hate. I want to yell at walls and converse with my carpet. The pillow and I are exploring other options.... But in the shower, sometimes I swear - I caught a glimpse of god. In between... Continue Reading →
Where Have I Been?
Pulled a quick Jim Carrey, no biggie. In the process of creating the life I want. Whatever that means. I can't put it in words, it's not really about materials. I'm not my house, I'm not my clothes. I'm just a persona wandering around to see what I can learn. Apparently random disappearances from the... Continue Reading →
What Am I Listening To?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ifwc5xgI3QM I have always been a casual Foo fan at best. I dug the radio hits, and generally got sick of them because they are perpetually overplayed. It's honestly how I felt about Nirvana back in the day... But this new album. Fuck me it's good. Run is such a good song, that I actually... Continue Reading →
Suicide Prevention Month – My Story Pt 2
Suicide Prevention Month - My Story Pt 1 About 2 months ago, I was driving home and The Outsider by A Perfect Circle came on. It’s one of those songs that felt too close to home about myself. I was singing and thinking how I had been punishing myself for everything that happened with my... Continue Reading →
Missing Men in Bucks County, PA
I've been following the story about the four men who are missing in Bucks County pretty closely. I live in Bucks County, so naturally, it's all over the place. Internet sleuths are commenting with their *thoroughly researched intel* (read: bullshit) that they are all drug addicts, etc. It is amazing to me how quickly people... Continue Reading →
From Am I? to I Am
“You are an aperture through which the universe is looking at and exploring itself.” ― Alan W. Watts I'm back on a TOOL kick, and it's massaging the brain again. Listening to Forty Six & 2, I finally had the aha I've been missing, or at least I forgot I knew. Or maybe I just... Continue Reading →
Commando
I felt my soul ripped outward, hung shapeless in the day Rose red of blushing cheeks, as the world inspects my shame I hid naked in the daylight, a flesh covered rag doll A child heaved in the darkest gutters of my own desire I found the hell they speak of, when I gazed into... Continue Reading →
