Talking about rape, abortion, adoptions - also the last 20 years of my life. Don't read it if you don't want to read about yucky stuff. Go anywhere else on my blog, there's plenty.
Hell is where the heart is
Fearing Craziness Made Me Crazy
At first, I thought meditation was going to cure me and solve all of my problems. I still don't know if the struggles I have are chemical or situational in nature. I suspect both. I think society, materialism, and our chattering monkey brains are contributing to the rising diagnoses for depression, anxiety, ADHD, and bipolar. I... Continue Reading →
Won’t Someone Think of the Children?
Continuing from: Depression is Selfish The suicides of Robin Williams, Chris Cornell, and Chester Bennington prompted a common concern: would kids copy these celebrities? This concern is used to justify anger and hostility. It is used to support "suicide is selfish". The concern is understandable, copycat suicides are real. The people most at risk to copycat... Continue Reading →
Bless This Mess
It’s a mess! I behest Help me straighten up! Exhaustion interrupts, “Cannot drink from empty cup” This mess, I attest Grows larger every day Chill out, I relay Can’t have all work no play But the piles keep piling I say unsmiling Escape so beguiling As the clutter makes me shudder Like a ship without... Continue Reading →
It’s the little things
I'm not going to lie, I'm hitting a weird wall the last few days. It's likely depression, and I'm trying to approach it better than the bury-head-in-sand ignore it approach or the move constantly so it won't catch you approach. I wrote to myself today, all day: "I know I'm Not okay, and that's okay."... Continue Reading →
O.M.I.B – Gravity
For the first time in, I don’t even know how long, I’m writing how I used to. I’m in my bathrobe, my hair is soaking wet, and I’m listening to Maynard. None of this is relevant, except maybe that I’m listening to Thirteenth Step album by APC. “What goes up, must come down” popped in... Continue Reading →
The Elephant in the Room
The Universe Herself seems to be beating me about the head to write. So, here I am. Last night, I watched this video where Joe Polish beautifully, eloquently, and genius-ly speaks about his addictions. You know how, when you buy a new car, you suddenly see your car everywhere, but before you had never noticed it? Or,... Continue Reading →
Summer haircuts!!
Lock wanted his hair cut like Corey Taylor. I don't think I've ever seen him so happy and excited. Haha the coolest thing is when your kids fall in love with your loves. If I had my way, Lock would actually be named Corey Taylor, but Jack overrode me and we compromised with a character... Continue Reading →
Succulent Project
Planted the succulents with the Poopies today!! It was quiet and peaceful for like 45 minutes!!!! They were occupied and building. This is mine This is Barrel's This is Shock's This is Lock's Here's them all!!! Got the bowls at Walmart for 3 bucks, stones were .97 a bag, and actually Walmart has cute succulents... Continue Reading →
One Mom’s Itchy Butt #15
The first week of summer has concluded, and I am fucking exhausted. It's not that I did a lot - I didn't. I can't. Normally, the kids are in summer camp, but I am on disability, and $2,000/month (Yes, really, and that's cheap) is just not feasible. I cannot go back to work yet, because... Continue Reading →
Mah Butt Itches 