Two concepts right now are something like I am nobody and nobody can be anybody. Ram Dass lovingly states we're all God in Drag and Watts giggles God is a Joker. That's a gross oversimplification, but not really. The entire concept of me - isn't really me. As a matter of fact, I'd go so... Continue Reading →
The Abyss’ Gaze
What is the gift of psychosis? (You can substitute psychosis with any word of your choosing) Seems an odd question and likely answerable with "none". Except, that's reductive and untrue. Any and everything can be a blessing or curse, tool or weapon, lead or gold. It's a spectrum far more than a binary. I would say everything is a blessing and a curse, a tool and a weapon, lead and gold. In fact, they are one in the same with the spectrum of choice lying within us, and our perspective can be a filter and a north star. To be honest, I'm not sure which lie I mean, and why it's not both.
How Do you Recover?
We're about... 2.5ish months into recovery from the latest psychotic break. Although, that word has so many connotations as to render it relatively meaningless if you think about it. But there was a question in the Psychosis Recovery group that made me think, and I thought I may as well share my thoughts. How do... Continue Reading →
To Whom Am I Listening? Nothing More – Spirits
(Trying to actually take time and write about music because it makes me happy...omg whatta notion) Let's go: yesterday was Cris Hodges - Black Hole Magic (epic. Fucking LOVE it), Pistols AtDawn - Ascension (also a newer release, charting and is absolutely kicking ass), and Nothing More's - Spirits. I want to start with Nothing... Continue Reading →
Validate or Abdicate from the Conversation
Suicide is not selfish. Suicide will never be selfish. Suicide is the terminal result of debilitating, life altering brain bullshit. Unless you are the type that tells cancer patients if they die, it’s selfish… 🤷🏿♀️ I hate the terms mental illness/mental health bc it is not that black and white. If I’m going to use... Continue Reading →
I served you my heart Why did you accept Knowing full well You’re a fucking vegetarian?! Poetry by Yours Truly
Narcissistic Cannibal lol
With wine and words, you drew me in Playing songs that stole air from the sky Your eyes undressed my soul, I became yours to devour My lips, you took first, in nibbles and nips My tongue was your pleasure, as long as it licked When it wagged too grandly, you chewed it down My... Continue Reading →
When I becomes We, Illness becomes Wellness
TL;DR: Take your Self extremely seriously and make fun of your problems. Because a person is never the problem, people can be fucking dumb. Lots of people doing nothing and asking why someone didn’t say or do something is a BIG FUCKING PROBLEM. Stop taking dumb shit seriously, and stop being dumb about serious shit. Now take a minute, harness your attention span, and learn some more
Dare you to fuck a blender
This thought, “broken, yes, that’s how the light gets in” keeps replaying. This idea that when you want to build a muscle, you break it down first. That’s how you get stronger. What doesn’t kill you makes you funnier; however, it doesn’t necessarily have to be your life’s purpose. I have to wonder if the... Continue Reading →