I wrote this last year, it seems applicable to re-post. My daughter’s current definition of love is “My dad cooked my mom cheesesteaks outside in a freaking snowstorm. If you’re not doing that for me, I’m not interested.” As someone who analyzes every word a person speaks like a linguistic sommelier… can I just tell... Continue Reading →
13 Rules to (hopefully) not die:
13 Rules to (hopefully) not die by
Sentient Dung Beetles v. Suicide
In this video I am using, what I have now realized is the true universal language - shit. To break out of intrusive thoughts, suicidal ideation, suicidality, depression, rumination, you name it. What if I reincarnate as a sentient dung beetle? I’m talking my consciousness, fully aware and experiencing eating shit for whatever lifetime of... Continue Reading →
Y’all Need Jesus
This is 💯 NSFW, 18+, very inappropriate for probably anyone, but come on… everybody loves a good sex story. 😏 Yesterday I wrote this long ass fucking post talking about shit I hate talking about in the hopes I will get better at talking about shit I do enjoy talking about. I don’t know if... Continue Reading →
Dare you to fuck a blender
This thought, “broken, yes, that’s how the light gets in” keeps replaying. This idea that when you want to build a muscle, you break it down first. That’s how you get stronger. What doesn’t kill you makes you funnier; however, it doesn’t necessarily have to be your life’s purpose. I have to wonder if the... Continue Reading →
What doesn’t kill you, makes you….
When people ask me whether I have a positive or negative outlook in life, I’d usually choose the middle ground and respond with “realistic”.However,… What doesn’t kill you, makes you…. Inspired by a convo Andrea and I were having via comments. I mentioned my philosophy of what doesn’t kill you makes you funnier, and she... Continue Reading →
Train your mind, ride your life
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NbBHR_CD56M The mind is a marvelous servant, but a cruel, distorted master. No force on this earth can suppress or oppress like our own minds. Jesus said, "The kingdom of heaven is within." and to "become as a child and ye shall know heaven." Most people have the impression that training the mind, mindfulness, meditation,... Continue Reading →
Active Addiction, Active Enablers – Twin Flames Creating Hell
I wanted to re-share this post in follow up to yesterday’s post. I wrote about video game addiction specifically yesterday, and I know I was letting out a lot of pain and anger there, but I think this post (inspired by what I’ve been going through) really follows on nicely. Addiction is just so prevalent,... Continue Reading →
Oh, how beautiful pain can be
So, you’re 19, you get raped and pregnant. Zoinks! You don’t even believe you got raped, so you hate, self harm, self destruct, and blame yourself - consider yourself an absolute fucking failure, fuck up, worthless- for like… 19+ years til you finally decide maybe talk to somebody about something (there’s so many to choose).... Continue Reading →
…? ;_;
…? ;_; Life is a series of periods - ellipses and endings Feel so caught in a state where I perpetually wait hoping what once was a declarative becomes inquisitive an affirmative negation blossoms to supplication where once was the end, a comma ammeds A semi colon addendum, a sentient heart uniting this sentence of... Continue Reading →