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The Circle of Life
The Power of Maybe
Black and white thinking, all or nothing, and catastrophizing were descriptors of me. I used to think if I worried about or thought about everything enough, I could control it. In some ways, maybe I took expect the best, plan for the worst too literally. In reality, I would just worry about everything and drive... Continue Reading →
I take breaks from thinking
So I can listen to the crickets better on a chilly night. So I can stop listening to the rumination that is as effective and draining as punching water to smooth it. So I can remind myself that I have yet to think my way out of a single problem So I can appreciate the... Continue Reading →
Suicide Prevention Month – My Story Pt 2
Suicide Prevention Month - My Story Pt 1 About 2 months ago, I was driving home and The Outsider by A Perfect Circle came on. It’s one of those songs that felt too close to home about myself. I was singing and thinking how I had been punishing myself for everything that happened with my... Continue Reading →
Suicide Prevention Month – My Story Pt 1
I am 13 years old. I'm in 7th grade. I'm on the bus, and I have the asshole kid in front of me reminding me how fat I am. He's added, now, to close my legs, because I smell like fish. My stomach crawled in my throat, and my heart is desperately trying to plug... Continue Reading →
All My Posts Regarding Suicide
I've been meaning to get some posts up for suicide prevention month. I wanted to link to some of my prior posts in one easy to access spot: No, Seriously, Suicide is Not Selfish Depression is Selfish Won’t Someone Think of the Children? 13 Reasons.. Please share any post that resonates with you and thanks... Continue Reading →
Got any cheese for that whine?
Narcissistic overshare *ahem* update The long story short is: I am having an allergic reaction to Lamictal and I may have early signs of SJS. The rash isn't a symptom of SJS because it's itchy, but my mouth ulcers are. SJS is a really nice acronym for a skin condition where the rash bubbles up and... Continue Reading →
I Am Getting My Shit Together
My life is nothing if not cyclical. This time last year, I was working on getting my shit together, and later in the year, I pulled a complete and total movie troupe, shaved my head and went crazy. It actually wasn't that linear, but I keep laughing about it. At that time, I started identifying... Continue Reading →
The Liar in fAILuRe
I’ve had two concepts in my mind. The first is: Anxiety is fear in disguise. The second is: Anxiety is a great teacher if you allow it. I read “The War of Art” by Steven Pressfield, and he was talking about fear, anxiety, depression, etc. all being forms of resistance. The urge to create versus... Continue Reading →
Holy Crap
Like a silent but deadly fart, I vanished without a trace. I don't know if that made sense. Anyway, I'm going through about 7 million things presently. Nothing bad, per se, but I really felt this need to shut up and get inside my own head. It's funny, 2 or more years ago, I probably... Continue Reading →
Mah Butt Itches 