Unbecoming I am tired of the bullshit; I am tired of the lies I am tired of denial; I am tired of fake smiles My head remains unbowed; my back is still not broken I release the veil and the shroud, begin the unbecoming When everyone is winning, I deny defeat You can... Continue Reading →
The sneaky and slithering s crawling on your tongue tinged with bile and a remembrance a time when lies were little and white your body betrayed your mind A word you couldn’t utter until your tongue swelled to the point of release the ick of finishing a word you never wished to say Like choking... Continue Reading →
Hey Siri, what’s passive-aggressive?
"Is everything all right?” You ask, hoping for a yes, or maybe not. Reality is created on the letters spoken, and the spaces of the ones I think are true. And while I’m so busy assuming, I can’t possibly tell you, the worlds of words that live inside my head too. And from another place,... Continue Reading →
Hell is where the heart is
Talking about rape, abortion, adoptions - also the last 20 years of my life. Don't read it if you don't want to read about yucky stuff. Go anywhere else on my blog, there's plenty.
Got any cheese for that whine?
Narcissistic overshare *ahem* update The long story short is: I am having an allergic reaction to Lamictal and I may have early signs of SJS. The rash isn't a symptom of SJS because it's itchy, but my mouth ulcers are. SJS is a really nice acronym for a skin condition where the rash bubbles up and... Continue Reading →
MahButtItches isn’t just a clever blog name..
...It's currently an unfortunately literal statement. (ha!) True to the art of narcissistic overshare, *ahem* I mean blogging... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l8o5fxnDUjs I started Lamictal 8 weeks ago now. I've been on it previously, but always with other med combos, and I have not had great results. My psych thought it was due to being overmedicated. His plan... Continue Reading →
The Elephant in the Room
The Universe Herself seems to be beating me about the head to write. So, here I am. Last night, I watched this video where Joe Polish beautifully, eloquently, and genius-ly speaks about his addictions. You know how, when you buy a new car, you suddenly see your car everywhere, but before you had never noticed it? Or,... Continue Reading →
Actual Self-Help Tips
I have a huge problem with most self help "guru's" or salespeople. Maybe I am too literal, I've been accused of this before, but when I think of self help, I think of myself helping...myself. If I am spending $10 - $3000 for someone else to tell me what to do, I don't consider it... Continue Reading →
One Mom’s Itchy Butt #9
"Mom, why do you take so many pills?" ~Lock "Mom, are you gonna go to the hospital again?" ~Shock "Mommy, stop smoking or you are going to get cancer and die." ~Barrel Kids are the most observant creatures on this planet - especially of the people they admire most - Mom & Dad. Their minds... Continue Reading →