Diary of a Bubble Butt #1

Editor's Note - I struggle with eating disorders.  I am unsure if references to eating disorders could be triggering, but if it is possible, considered yourself warned?  Since I was 15, I have struggled with bulimia, anorexia, and binge-ing/emotional eating. Food is more of a weapon than a nutrient for me.  I'd love to say... Continue Reading →

What If I Am Wrong? (Part 1 of 3) What If I Am Wrong (Part 2 of 3) I take medication to keep me stable, but worry that I am hurting myself more than helping.  I meditate and write to heal, but worry that I am proliferating my own madness.  I try to be an... Continue Reading →

What If I’m Wrong (Part 2 of 3)

What If I Am Wrong? (Part 1 of 3) Prior to the hospital, I was convinced that I was supposed to write and help others.  I was convinced that if I wrote, everything would be fine.  Then, I got convinced my ex was talking to me through music.  I got convinced my phone was hacked... Continue Reading →

What If I Am Wrong? (Part 1 of 3)

(Splitting this long post into 3, because I hate ridiculously long blog posts...) Those five words echo hauntingly in my mind.  There is a part of me that wonders what I would be able to accomplish if I did not second guess myself constantly.  I read not that long ago that people born under a... Continue Reading →

One Mom’s Itchy Butt #14

One Mom’s Itchy Butt #13 I was taking a bath yesterday, and I started chuckling.  I had carved out a few hours to do a New Moon ritual, including a nice, long, relaxing bath.  My hippie side aside, I was laughing at the fact that I scheduled a damn bath.  I thought about how much... Continue Reading →

One Mom’s Itchy Butt #13

Continued from Yesterday... Depending on your answer on how you parent yourself, I have determined I am a hypocrite and I am objectively logical in raising my children, and subjectively irrational to myself.  1 of the complex types refuses to follow any rules.  I've always been that stubborn, "I'll do it my way".  I don't... Continue Reading →

“Mommy, why did you get sick?”

As little as two months ago, that question would have started a shit-storm of self loathing, anger, and telling myself what a lousy Mom I am.  I don't think any parent wants their child to see them as weak, struggling, or sick.  I suspect it is even more so when the sickness in question is... Continue Reading →

One Mom’s Itchy Butt #12

Continued from Yesterday... Have you ever thought about how you treat yourself? I've been doing a lot of study/work on the inner child, and I embraced the notion of re-parenting your inner child.   It all started with the simple suggestion to ask myself, "What do I need today?"  I started my day journaling it to... Continue Reading →

One Mom’s Itchy Butt #11

Continued from yesterday Coping skills are not for certain people.  It is not a mental illness only thing.  We all need coping skills, because the world is not a helicopter parent.  The world will not protect you, nor will people.  I find it interesting that diagnoses are higher than ever, coping skills seem in short... Continue Reading →

One Mom’s Itchy Butt – #10

If I were to say I have an arch-nemesis, it would be the Helicopter Parent.  We've all seen them, and if you are one of them, this will likely offend you.  At the playground, I see them hovering to ensure Billy doesn't scrape his knee or enjoy independent play.  You can tell them on Facebook... Continue Reading →

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