I wrote/made this 4 years ago in this post titled Confidence. I was talking about all the stuff I did to be able to sit in a chair for a 6 hour outline of my hydra back piece, it was interesting to see how I understood and defined confidence then and where it took me, and how I’d define it now, and where will it take me, or you, if you agree?
Confidence is being everything that you are, and trusting that you will take yourself exactly where you want to be.
It was really interesting re-reading that today and seeing how I’m understanding what confidence does mean to me now – I can be everything inside and still do what I want to do.
When I was saying about angels and devils being best friends, at some point, an accord can be reached where everybody essentially gets on the same team.
In the case of a tattoo or a blog, or whatever is going on: fear of pain, rejection, success or failure can be there. Uncertainty, doubts, confusion. It can all be there. Hell panic attacks, depression, all the bad shit you can think of.
Confidence is not about the absence these bad shits as much as bravery is not the absence of fear.
Confidence is having it all – bad shit included – being everything you are and trusting that you will take yourself exactly where you want to go.
How do I know? How many times have you taken yourself straight to hell because of all the bad shit. How well have you fucked up your life? How many tasks did you fail successfully? You have absolutely taken yourself to places you didn’t wanna go, you can absolutely take yourself where you wanna go too.
Still not buying it?
How about this: how low you go is merely a reflection of how high you can soar.
Confidence is having it all – bad shit included – being everything you are and trusting that you will take yourself exactly where you want to go. You don’t need to grow, develop, or learn it. You have always been doing this. Now trust it to get you where you want.
Mah Butt Itches 
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