The best moment yet

Fade In/Fade Out was playing. She grabbed my hand, then reached up and grabbed his. Ty grabbed Evan’s and we all pulled each other close. We sang every word together.

It’s moments like this…where everything is too perfect for comprehension and you will your brain and heart to record every microsecond. The dimples, crinkled noses dusted with freckles. Tiny fingers. I didn’t want to take a picture but kind of had to moments like these are the buoy we cling to when life is making us stronger. It was a quick hope to freeze everything my soul has hoped for. Blurred then by tears of joy because how could you ever once think you are a bad mom? Does it even matter? Look at them; I have nothing to do with it. I may be a teacher, but they are already masters.

This moment started when I told everyone that, if nothing else, if they remember nothing else about me, about what I say or what I do, please just remember that every word of this song is meant from me to them. Alexa has played it so many times, she probably has taught herself a new skill.

It was supposed to be our first date night in Reno tonight. We bought tickets in the middle of packing to move across the country, and I genuinely forgot Nothing More was opening. When Evan reminded me a few weeks ago, I told him we should bring the kids. Implicitly, I was hoping we’d all get to hear Fade In/Fade out. Explicitly, Nothing More and Ghost is some of our faves and I was too distracted packing to think concerts…

So many nightmares pale in the face of this dream. Don’t pinch me, I already woke up.

So many words to say thank you.

((They totally played Watts, and I totally screamed quotes. THE OCEAN WAVES!!! THE UNIVERSE PEOPLES!!!))

((We apparently shared this insanely magical moment with the lead singer’s girlfriend. She told Tyler she loved watching him sing and was going to tell Johnny about him. How friggin cool is that?!?! Ty was beaming))