Fear once ruled my life, but it has fallen away from me. I suppose, when your heart gets broken enough times, hurting becomes the normal. Happiness, on the other hand, feels alien. These thoughts I carry, as I smile to you and say, “I just want you to be happy.” For the first time in my life, I know what they say about love. For me, just seeing your smile is enough. I tell you that I just want you to be around, which is true, because when I am around you, life makes sense.
You are grimly determined to guard your heart and pain. Unknowingly, you have chained me to the cross you are bound to carry. As I look at you, I can only hope that I can make your burden lighter. I know I’m strong enough to love you, because for the first time in my life, I am strong enough to love myself more. Even though it hurts to feel this way, there is a sad and lonely comfort in the hollow of my heart. I’ve lived long enough with it vacant.
That is why I am fearless. That is why I remain quiet. My eyes tell the whole story, anyway. I am confident you know it all, but we’ll just sit side by side in silence. No sense stating the obvious.
you haven’t blogged in a long time, hope all is well.
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ugh. I allowed my life to get stupid and complicated. It’s a very long story. I think I’m finally going to start writing again. Sorry I’ve been gone – how are you? ❤
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I’m good, I missed you and was worried about you. Looking forward to reading your post.
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Thank you – I missed you too. Sorry that I worried you. Thank you for thinking of me ❤️
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❤️
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