Lavinia

You brought the sun inside of me

Though my clouds wouldn’t dissipate

It’s gotten to the point, I pray to forget

my heart is too stubborn to listen

Each beat gives me the echo of the pain that did not lessen

Gone and lost, a freezing flame burning

Lost and gone, a bleeding scar yearning

Your love was like a papercut

between my wiggling toes

Aching never in plain sight

But present in every moment

The milk of your words

would soothe the sorest spots

Now soured in your absence

Gone and lost, a freezing flame burning

Lost and gone, a bleeding scar yearning

Your love was like a papercut

between my wiggling toes

I tried to find myself when I lost you

I journeyed deep inside, but I still hear you

I numbed, escaped, then sat in my own heartache

I’ve played every chord, every song I’ve heard

I’ve written every word, devoured every rhyme

Gone and lost, a freezing flame burning

Lost and gone, a bleeding scar yearning

Your love was like a papercut

between my wiggling toes

Losing you, I lost my mind

Then wondered if I ever had it

a thousand notes and now I can’t

even tell how to find it

even with a missing mind

your words and face echo

the aching heart I can’t replace

still beats missing you

I keep wondering why or what I started looking for in the first place

I keep wondering why or what you did to make me feel this

I keep wondering how I will ever, take a breath without your name on it

I keep pretending that it’s okay to be insane

Your love is like a papercut

in the corner of my eye

Open or closed, it doesn’t matter,

I just wish you could feel me, too.

 

…Please come back…